Heading over toe

On my highest stress of finding the right dress for farewell, May 11th.

Just something I want to share.

Here it is.

This is may be a little weird, but I LOVE (with a capital L) writing.

I love to write everything. Stories, songs, poets.

But the thing is, my writing- I just haven't  finished them all.

There's too many ideas to catch up in my head, and when I started to write them, they're all gone =P

And now I want to share something - a story that I made just a week ago.

I haven't found the name yet, but please enjoy reading it.

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AREDIO AKBAR WIRAGA

“Hey, girl what are you doing?

When I see your smile, it makes me smile

When I see your laugh, it makes me laugh

Everything about you makes me melt

And yes, that is the way I felt”

Tascha Lestari, namanya. Mungil, looks fragile but tough in the same time. Kalo itu cewek lagi senyum, wuih, cantiknya. Periang, humoris, ngambekan. Kalo dia cemberut, tangan pasti nggak tahan kalo nggak nyubit pipinya. Lucu banget soalnya.

Cheerleader, good singer. Itu semua bener-bener bakatnya. Badannya enerjik banget kalo lagi nge-cheers. Suaranya sopran tapi nggak fals. Belum lagi kepandaiannya yang lain. Pinter masak, contohnya.

Kayak sekarang, dia lagi sibuk ngegosip di depan kelas gue. Bareng beautiful people Parama Institute, dia kan anak eksis. Sama sih kayak gue. But let’s back to the topic. Ekspresinya cepet banget berubah-rubah. Lucu. Tangan gue gatel buat fotoin dia pake kamera Nikon SLR yang lagi gue pegang ini. Well, gue kan anak fotografi.

Eh, temen gue, si Rata manggil. Panggilannya sih Raka. Tapi gue lebih suka manggil dia Rata, singkatan dari Raka Dipta. Penting banget gitu ngomongin Chelsea lawan Arsenal kemaren? Padahal gue kan lagi asik-asiknya ngeliatin Tascha. Tapi nggak apa-apa lah. Buat nyembunyiin salting gue yang lagi menjadi-jadi. Tascha ngeliat kearah sini soalnya..

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TASCHA LESTARI

“Hey boy

When will you realize?

That I am always here, beside you

Waiting for you to find me, my dream come true

And hoping that you need me too”

Aredio Akbar Wiraga. Bagus banget ya namanya? Sebagus orangnya, dong. Rahang tinggi, hidung mancung, alis tebal, bibir pinkish. Manis. Tapi setau aku cuma cewek yang bibirnya pink kayak gitu. Mungkin karena dia nggak ngerokok ya? Nggak kayak temen-temen cowok aku yang lain.

Anak fotografi. Aku sudah pernah bilang belum, that he has a magic hand? Apapun kamera yang dia pegang, dari Lomo sampai Nikon, hasil fotonya selalu sempurna. Perfect. Punya  nyawa. Udah nggak kehitung berapa banyak ajang fotografi yang dia ikutin, terus selalu keluar jadi juara. Hebat ya?

Terus Aredio juga OSIS. Walaupun bukan ketua, pasti dia yang selalu gantiin ketua buat pidato di depan umum. Dia itu punya kharisma. Tegas, tapi lembut. Aku suka banget ngeliatin dia pidato, kesannya kayak dia itu bener-bener ngomong dari hati, bukan asal nyembur doang.

Oh iya, Aredio itu pinter banget main gitar sama piano. Suaranya juga nggak kalah bagus dibandingin sama permainan musiknya. Pengen banget duet bareng sama dia. Kayak Adni yang waktu itu duet bareng dia pas pensi. Sirik.

Tau nggak? Dari tadi Aredio ngeliatin aku mulu. Kenapa ya? Aku deg-degan nih, beneran. Tapi  nggak mungkin ah. Kali aja dia ngeliatin Sharika yang cantik banget di sebelah aku. Aku kan jadi patah hati.

Eh tunggu dulu, gimana ini? Kok tiba-tiba aja kepala aku noleh sendiri kearah Aredio? Nggak bisa lepas nih mata aku ngelatin dia. Cakep banget dia hari ini pake hoodie begitu..

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RAKA DIPTA WILDANSYAH

“Well if you want to say yes, say yes

And if you want to say no, say no

Cause theres a million ways to go

You know that there are”

(If You Want To Sing Out – Cas Stevens)

Gue lagi kesel sama Dio. Sumpah, belakangan ini anak itu tambah korslet aja otaknya. Stres gue. Diajak makan bakso mesennya pizza, disuruh ngambil laptop ngambilnya DVD portable. Apalagi kalo si imut Tascha ada di deket kita berdua. Tambah ngepot aja otak ini anak. Nggak pernah bisa lepas mandangin Tascha. Such a dumb, isn’t he?

Kayak sekarang, Tascha lagi sibuk ngegosip di depan kelas Dio, dan gue ngeliat tatapan memuja yang lagi-lagi berasal dari kunyuk di sebelah gue. Padahal biasanya dia nggak pernah nyuekin gue kalo kita lagi ngomongin Chelsea sama Arsenal. Dio kan Arsenal sejati.

Menurut gue, Tascha memang imut. Tergolong cantik malah. Sama kayak Sharika dan gengnya. Tapi yah buat gue gitu-gitu aja. Nggak ada desir-desir aneh di hati gue waktu ngeliat Syafa lewat. So far, sih.  Tapi menurut Dio nggak. Tascha gini lah, Tascha gitu lah. Dikit-dikit Tascha.

Gue sering bingung. Gue yakin banget kalo Dio lagi jatuh cinta akut sama si Tascha. ‘Kenapa nggak lo tembak aja sana?’ kata gue waktu itu. Tapi dia dengan muka memelas bilang, ‘Tascha itu cantik, Ta. Pasti banyak banget cowok di luar sana yang suka sama dia. Selera Tascha juga pasti tinggi banget. Gue nggak yakin kalo gue masuk ke kriteria dia. Lagipula gue sama Tascha juga nggak saling kenal’. Gila, kan?

Sori ya, bukannya gue homo atau apa, tapi menurut gue, sobat gue ini lumayan. Buktinya, setiap kali gue sama Dio lewat, paling nggak separuh dari cewek-cewek di deket kita lagsung ngerapiin rambut, pasang apatuh namanya? Lip balm? Terus ngeliat Dio dengan muka mupeng (muka pengen) yang amat sangat. Separuhnya lagi ya ngeliat kearah gue. Gini-gini kan gue juga lumayan.

Terus masalah kenalan. Apa susahnya sih nanya nomer hand phone-nya Tascha ke Sharika? Gue sama Dio kan juga termasuk beautiful people di Parama Institute. Tinggal sms, kalo nggak nelfon deh, bilang ini dari Aredio. Pengen kenalan sama Tascha. Susah amat. Emang dasar otaknya aja yang udah keburu keriting kalo ngeliat ‘si-imut-Tascha’.

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SHARIKA ADRIENNE

“At first when I see you cry

Yeah, it makes me smile

Yeah, it makes me smile

At first I feel bad for awhile

But then I just smile

I go ahead and smile”

(Smile – Lily Allen)

 

‘Hey, Tascha? Earth to reality?’ ucap gue jutek plus sinis sama orang yang lagi asik daydreaming di sebelah gue ini. Yang dijutekin malah cengar-cengir. Tascha Lestari. My so-called friends, means half friend and other half enemies. Heran? Well, that’s just life in high school, dear. In a fake friendship like mine, I suppose.

Gue suka sebel sama Tascha. Cantik? Walaupun gue ogah banget ngakuinnya, Tascha emang cantik. Smart? She’s a genius! Jangan pernah mengharapkan Tascha turun dari lima besar. Gaul, eksis, famous? Iyalah, nggak mungkin nggak. Semua orang kenal dia. Semua yang nggak ada di gue ada di dia. As you know, maybe I’m better than her in social-life, anything but brain and reality. She’s perfect and everybody knows that.

Itu yang gue takutin sekarang. Tambah hari Tascha tambah terkenal, otomatis lingkungan pergaulannya nggak cuma sebatas di Parama Institute doang kan? I’m afraid of losing my queen-bee position. Yes, I’m the queen and you guys are my bees. So better keep out of my reach!

Denger-denger sih, Tascha fall in love with Aredio Akbar. Lo tau, one of the most wanted man in Parama Institute? Dan kabarnya Aredio juga suka sama Tascha. Unfortunately, mereka berdua takut to take a move. Dumbass. Menurut gue sih, Aredio Akbar terlalu bagus buat Tascha. Apa buat gue aja ya?

Well, there’s too many plan to catch up in my head. Tentu aja buat nyingkirin Tascha supaya dia nggak merebut posisi gue sekarang ini. Everybody wants to be me, right? Tapi jangan harap. Satu-satunya ratu di Parama Inst. cuma gue, dan Tascha nggak bakalan bisa ngerebut itu. Well, as they said, keep your friend close, but your enemies closer. And Tascha is absolutely one of my soon-to-be enemies. Fall for you, girlfriend!

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Thanks for reading :)

Plus Minus Ujian Nasional Dari Kacamata Siswa

Hey, this is via. It's a long time since I posted anything here. Maybe after this school task, I will write on my blog more often :D

Menurut saya, ujian nasional sebetulnya bersifat baik, karena hal ini memacu semangat kita untuk belajar lebih giat, untuk membuktikan bahwa kita mampu. Mampu untuk lulus dari SMP. Kesadaran kita sebagai siswa juga timbul, semangat untuk membanggakan orangtua dengan prestasi yang gemilang. Kita juga dituntut untuk membagi waktu, antara les dan sekolah, karena beberapa murid mungkin membutuhkan beberapa pelajaran tambahan.

Tapi saya sebenarnya juga bimbang. Saya takut. Takut karena semua hal yang telah saya upayakan, yang telah saya lakukan selama saya berada di SMP, dipertaruhkan 3 hari pada saat ujian nasional. Apakah saya akan lulus, atau saya tetap tinggal dan mengulang.

UAN juga mungkin membuat para murid tertekan. Mengapa? Karena nasib kita, para murid, bergantung di UAN. Kita akan dinilai oleh negara, untuk pertama kalinya, apakah kita mampu untuk lulus apa tidak. Bahkan mungkin, saking tertekannya anak itu, ia sampai mengurangi waktu bermainnya, waktu tidurnya, hanya untuk belajar dan terus belajar.

Orangtua juga pasti akan terus mendorong kita untuk giat mempersiapkan diri untuk UAN tersebut, sampai melupakan bahwa kita juga butuh waktu luang. Waktu untuk refreshing. Untuk melupakan masalah UAN sebentar.

Apalagi sekarang, UAN dimajukan menjadi akhir bulan maret. Ada juga kabar bahwa tahun depan IPS akan diikutkan dalam UAN. Apakah tidak ada kabar yg lebih menyenangan dari ini? (skeptis)

Walaupun sebenarnya, maju atau tidaknya UAN, ada atau tidaknya UAN, hal itu tergantung dari diri kita sendiri. Apakah kita mau, dan juga mampu untuk lulus sekolah dan melanjutkan pendidikan ke jenjang yg lebih tinggi.

Well, that's all for now. Thank you for reading anyway :D

I owe you guys a BIG thanks.

Hey, there's been a while since my last post.
Well, I haven't online recently, because next week my mid test is coming.
Of course I'm scared to hell!
But there are some of my homework that I've havent done yet.
What kind of student I am?
Ehm not the good one, I suppose hehe

Oh yea, three days ago was my birthday.
I'm 14 years old now,
That's mean I've already a teenager, a grown one.
But my parents still treat me like a child!
Oh puhleaseeeeee mom, dad.

And also, I want to thank everyone that have said "Happy Birthday" to me.
I absolutely wont forget about this. Thank youuuu
@diandraash, @devinamalia01, @damaracoon, @fiqihfadzli, @mentarirania, @dindaaa, @dindakania, @andinidyah, @denafathina, @inooong, @riantiputri, @destriamel,  @dhiiiil, @primarthur, @saraculun, @vanialmira, kiko, annisa, nadilla, rika, danti, sekar, chika, eca, sayang, chyntia, and many others.

Really, I owe you guys a BIG thanks :D

birthday wishes

Hey, there is five days more from my 14th birthday.
Well, same as other teenager out there, I also have some birthday wishes.
Here they are :

 1. Blackberry Tour 9360

Well, not to mention but my old blackberry 8320 has been old enough to change with this blackberry :]

 

2. CANON EOS 450D

This is absolutely my first obsession about photography thing. Maybe I will ask my parents about it ;p

 

 

3. Some fashion things.

Well, my wardrobe was absolutely filled up with basic clothes and now I'm trying to change that to some cool fashion do.

 Well, just hope that I'll get them!

announcement.

Heeyy, udh lama bgt ga posting.
Well I have some news to tell :
1. I'll change my blog to some kind of fashion blog - many photos and more. I dont know why, but it's maybe kinda interesting for me to do hehehe
2. And also my school has started the Idul Fitri holidays. There won't be two whole week with test and studying make me freakingly happy
3. I kinda miss a boy from my past, he is the very first boy that I fell in love with since I arrived at Jakarta (okay little bit overacted). But really, I do have many spring-summer-fall-winter fling but it's just like he's the one. I don't know if he missed me too, or not.
Well, that's it. Happy holidays, guys!

yummy!

Yesterday, Dilla and Kiko went to my house, and before that, we went to URBIE, a cool shop with lots of cool accesories. But we got a busy traffic jam and it's really annoy us. So we just gossiping in my car and my driver just laugh about it =3 And yea, Kiko and Dilla really mad at me because I've just bought ONE neklace after our long long journey.

*well that's not my fault if my heart fell in love with just one neklace, right?

After that, we got back to my house and heard a bad news, those earthquake thing. But really, we didn't feel it at all! At the time, me and Dilla were using the toilet in my house and Kiko was just smilling on the mirror. Well i know she's a little narcistic. Kiko Just kidding =p

And when I was surfing at facebook and Dilla was surfing at twitter, we found that almost everybody talk about that earthquake. It's suddenly in for trending topics! Of course we went crazy and phone our parents, friends and siblings but the signals are off! Dilla was crying when she phone her parents. Just let it out, girl..

Then, we went back to Labschool Rawamangun, our school for breakfasting. Well, for your information, bukpus is really fun! I ate almost every food in that room, after all those just looks really delicious.

*URBIE : jln. Raya Jatiwaringin, Kav AU, Blok A no.5

forgive me and happy fasting!

Hey this is the very first day of fasting.

Gue manusia, pasti punya salah, so please forgive me for all mistakes i did back then.

Buat orang yg ngatain gue, really thank you so much. Gue sadar kalo gue punya banyak bgt kekurangan and I'm trying to change that. 

But one more thing please, could you spell your name? I don't know why but it kinda felt irritated when someone just mock in front of you and said those things. Lo juga gamau kan gue katain? Jadi gue minta maaf kalo udh ganggu lo and mata lo. Dont want to see me?

.........JUST CLOSE YOUR EYES AND GET LOST!

ughh

Not in the good mood.

It seems that I haven't write for a week. Don't know why, maybe I just got tired after those called 'school EVIL thing'. They even make us to go home at 3 o'clock. Can you imagine how tired we were?

And I'm still worrying about my relationship with pot*. We didn't call it a proper, official or a real date, but we acted like one. I liked him, but not too much. Do you know what it feel like? 

Also I haven't found the right 'bimbel' course yet. Do you have any suggestion? 

By the way I just love this picture so much.

really, its a shame.

I know that it seems lame but I'm still sad about an accident that happened in Jakarta, July 17th ago.
At JW Marriot and Ritz Carlton hotel, 2 bombs have been exploded by some 'unknown' man and with 'unknown' reason.
The first bomb was in the Syailendra restaurant at JW Marriot hotel and the second bomb was in the Airlangga restaurant at Ritz Carlton hotel.
I just cant imagine how could they do that without thinking about how many people could hurt or worse, die because of their action? About some families out there that lost their siblings?
And the important thing is, how could they do that without thinking about Indonesia's reputation and future in front of another nation? That they said Indonesia = negara teroris? really, for me it's a shame.
By the way, go Indonesia Unite!

wondering, crying, crazier.

Nah, I'm really confused. I've got a crush to someone that i cannot reach on. 

Pathetic? yes.

Selfish? absolutely.

And when somebodyI ask him about the real thing, you know what? He said yes. Really, I liked him. His cute face, his kind heart, his funny attitude, his crazy personality. But I don't think that I'm perfect for him. 

The important thing is that I liked him. My heart hurt if he smiles to other girls. Hold their hands. Even if she's just his friend. I'm afraid. I'm afraid that he would forget about me. Ditched me. Just as simple as that.

Please, I don't wanna lose you because of my childlish things. Will you understand?

you lift my feet off the ground

spin me around

you make me crazier, crazier

feels like i'm falling and i

lost in your eyes

you make me crazier, crazier, crazier

its just like yesterday

Yes, I'm already a 9th grade now. I don't know that time flies really fast. It's just like yesterday I talked with my best friend : Nadhila, Annisa, Puput, Denatria, Andini, Sekar at 8Fixtradensta.

It's just like yesterday we saw each other. It's just like yesterday we hang out together. It's just like yesterday we shared our stories. It's just like yesterday we had those jokes. It's just like yesterday we talked about person we hate. It's just like yesterday we had our crazy times altogether.

We are fixtradensta's.

When Nadhila acted like 'Manohara', when Annisa acted like Mr. Karman, when Puput bullied ponpon, when Denatria did her marvelous rubics tricks, when Andini talked about 'the master', when Sekar acted like a crazy person. It's just like yesterday.

When we went to Yogyakarta and had those funny times at Fixtradensta's bus. When me-Nadhila-Annisa-Puput had those crazy times at our hotel room. When me and Andini saw those half naked boys at Andini's hotel dorm. When we met Denatria after our new years holiday. It's just like yesterday.

Also all the great times we made with Fixtradensta's. I will never forget about it although I've knew you guys just for a year. I love you guys, really. But we must goes on. At least that's what I'm trying to do right now.

So, goodbye my Fixtradenstas. Welcome my new class : 9F.